i live yesterday today and hope tomorrow
is different even though i know
i shall spend it looking back
since the presence of the past
is always present
i cannot break free from
the inexplicably inescapable torment
of being without you
it is unjustifiable to blame you for
every time i have broken my own heart
by trusting that which i knew could not sustain me
by leaning on arms i knew would fail me
i remind myself not to think about you
and in so doing i think about you!!
i forget that i'm supposed to forget
and call to the fore all that should
have been laid to rest
at the behest of my heart
my quest to forget falters
and if this was a test
then the only thing i could attest to is that
the best times i ever had
were the times i was blest
to be with you
i know we cannot be together
i know you belong to someone else
but there's something about you
that means i cannot help myself
i want to let you go
i want you to know that i have integrity
but when you touch me it messes with me
and all the resolve to give you up dissolves
and i'm left with an inability
to free myself from you
so just for today
for one more day let's pretend
that we found each other
just before we settled for what was
immediately in front of us
for fear that we would never find
the stuff of romantic novels
and let us lose ourselves
in this moment divided
infinitesimally
so that this last dance
lasts the rest
of our lives
NaiNai (c) 2014
Image fm 'The Story of Lovers Rock' by Menelik Shabazz
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