You have long grown accustomed
To the things about me
That used to make your heart
Beat faster
Nothing about me excites you anymore
And yet I love you
My breasts though shapely
Lighter now
The subtle changes in them go unnoticed
Caressed only by brand names
Lingerie keeping
The promises your hands made
To hold and squeeze
In sickness and in health
My stomach shows little sign
Of the children I bore you
It barely remembers your head
Laid upon it in
Comfort, oneness and desire
Though flames flicker inwardly
No grace has been afforded
My elegant ageing
My silver fox
Holds no fascination for you
For you otherwise occupied
Did not see her turn grey
So long a time it has been
Since you burned for her
Visited her
My mind sharper now
Than when first we met
Is not encouraged
There is no respect
For my seeking a higher
Consciousness
The challenges my intellect poses
Gives rise to undisguised contempt
Almost as if you would prefer
Nothing more from me than
Lobotomised domesticity
My smile no longer charms
And my quirkiness
Finds no place
Enchantment and mystery
Were pushed out of the nest
By irritation and impatience
Chicks I did not hatch
Both grow too fat to fly
You favour them to me
My abundant spirit cannot get passed them
I had seen you grow tired
And I was helpless
To stop the thing that always happens
When you have no talent
Other than being yourself
To offer the one you love
And once that stops being enough
You watch love fade aided
By others who seem to live the most flamboyant lives
As compared with yours
As if they exist beyond the mundane
Never having to eat cereal for breakfast
Or do the weekly shop online
With suitcase in hand
I stand and take one last look at
The life we built where I
Have lived alone
Waiting for you to
Love me again
Aching for you to
Know me again
When I told you I was leaving
You asked sardonically where would I go
And what would I do
Without you
Not once did you say
Please stay
You have long grown accustomed
To the things about me
That used to make your heart
Beat faster
Nothing about me excites you anymore
And yet I loved you
Longer than you deserved
NaiNai (c) 2013
